The Trap of Fear

I have been a Christian for about 8.5 years and I would like to say that I’ve been able to trust in my God and Savior with my whole heart.  The problem is that is simply not the case.  While I have learned and grown through the years I still have a lot of distrust.  Right now, my family is barely scraping by financially. I am working multiple part time jobs trying to pay the bills after leaving a well paying job because I was being asked to do things I did not agree with morally or ethically and despite having good references and a pretty solid resume I cannot find anything full time.

It has been very difficult and taxing on all of us.

While I do not regret the decision to leave my last position, I have often wondered why God has allowed us to reach this point month after month.  I have been asking “Why?” for too long. Today I spoke to a manager at a previous employer, at which I had exceled before accepting a new job offer, and it doesn’t look like that is going to work out either.  I began feeling overwhelmed and afraid.  With each passing day the bills keep coming in.  Some can be paid on time and some cannot.  As I sit in this chair paralyzed by the situation I remember what God always tells His children,

Don’t be afraid. I am with you wherever you go, even to the ends of the earth. I will not leave you or forsake you.

I write this not as a petition for sympathy, which stems from pride, but as an encouragement to myself along with anyone else struggling with fear. Fear is a tool of the enemy; he uses it to manipulate and control us into forgetting and doubting our Father. May this be a blessing to someone somewhere for the honor and glory of our Father and Most High Priest, Jesus.

Maranatha, selah.

Published by Dan Scott

Blogger, IT pro, husband and father. Loves Jesus, music, and retro gaming. Trying to make the world better than I found it.

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