30 Day Prayer Challenge – Day 5 Update

So we’re five days into the 30 day prayer challenge and it’s been really good so far.

Over the last year or so I’ve been dealing with a lot of things that’ve happened in my personal life which had left my faith shaken. Was there a chance that I would turn my back on God? No. Was I hurt by things he had us walk through and things that my Christian brothers and sisters had said and done? Absolutely. Was I angry? You bet, but I had no desire to walk away from God. However, that anger, frustration, and pain did hinder my walk with Him which led to the months long hiatus from the blog that I took at the end of last year.

In the midst of all of that I had lost the desire to write. I lost the desire to talk about God or the bible… or perhaps more accurately, God removed those desires so He could carry me through that really hard time. However, during this prayer challenge, God has reignited the passion to get back to work for the kingdom. I hadn’t realized just how far from Him I had gotten, and how distant His voice had become during those darker months; yet in the process of actively seeking Him daily it’s gotten easier to hear His voice once more and to discern His Will in different situations. I still forget to pray from time to time throughout the day, but I’m confident as we continue through this month that it will become more of a habit.

My hope in writing this, I guess, is simply to encourage you. You don’t have to be perfect, and even if you’ve grown distant from God or have never been close to Him, He is waiting for you to open your heart to him.

An Introduction to James

Somebody asked me a few years back what my favorite book of the bible was. At the time I had a hard time answering because I have several that I really like. Matthew, Luke, John, Revelation, Galatians, Isaiah, Ecclesiastes, and Daniel to name a few. However, as time has passed the obvious answer, for me, is James. It’s just so good! I mean I’ve had several bibles over the years and in every one of them almost every line of the book of James is highlighted, underlined, and annotated with impressions and things that God has shown me about my own life. I try to read James at least two or three times a year and I realized that I’ve never really done anything on it for the blog, and therefore figured we could go on a little journey through my favorite book together!



“James, a servant of God and of the Lord Jesus Christ, to the twelve tribes in the Dispersion…” – James 1:1 (ESV)

Who is the author? He identifies himself as James, a servant of God and of the Lord Jesus. By all accounts this James is most likely the oldest of Jesus’ younger siblings* (Matthew 13:55) and who after the resurrection became a church father. He is mentioned in the council at Jerusalem (Acts 15:13) and later became the leader of the church in Jerusalem after Peter left for Rome. According to John’s gospel, James was likely one of Jesus’ brothers who recognized Jesus’ power, but misunderstood his mission (John 7:2-5).

According to Paul who appears to have had a close relationship with James (Acts 12:17, 21:18), Jesus appeared to his little brother after his resurrection before appearing to his other followers (1 Corinthians 15:7). After his own conversion Paul met with James in Jerusalem (Galatians 1:19) and described him as a “pillar” of the church along with Peter and John (Galatians 2:9).

*[Some traditions deny the idea that Mary and Joseph would have had any biological children and therefore claim that Jesus’ “brothers” or “siblings” were likely cousins or step-siblings (Joseph’s children from a previous marriage) however there’s no real evidence to support these claims as opposed to the reasonable expectation of a young married couple to have their own biological children together as was customary in 1st century Jewish culture.]

The Life & Death of James

James was also known outside of the bible as James the Just or James the Righteous due to his virtue, faithfulness, and devotion to the Lord. He was said to have been respected by all of the Jewish sects within Judea at the time, however he died as a martyr in the year 62 AD or 69 AD (there is some debate). Though there is debate on how exactly this happened, the historian Eusebius holds that the account of early Church chronicler Hegesippus is most likely to be accurate. According to Hegesippus James was loved and respected by the people of Jerusalem, and many came to know the Lord because of his faithfulness. Just as with Jesus, however, James was soon targeted by the Scribes and pharisees and on Passover in the year 62 (or 69) AD he was asked to speak to the people from the top of the temple. When the rulers asked him about Jesus, he responded by proclaiming to the crowds, “Why do you ask me about Jesus, the Son of Man? He sits in heaven at the right hand of the great Power, and he will soon come on the clouds of heaven!”

According to the legend, the crowds responded by praising Jesus prompting the rulers to push him from the temple in an attempt to kill him for blasphemy. Surviving the fall, it is said, James cried out in prayer, asking God to forgive his attackers to which the pharisees responded by stoning him before he was finally killed by a clubbing blow (Eusebius. Eccleiastical History, vol. II, ch. 23, AD 323).

The Roman historian Josephus tells a more direct account of the death of James being stoned to death by the Sanhedrin following false accusations of violating the Law (Josephus. Antiquities of the Jews, book 20, chapter 9, verse 1, c. AD 93). It may be worth noting that while Hegesippus’ telling of the story has traditionally been considered orthodox, Josephus’ account tends to be favored by modern historians.

Audience and Date

James’ letter is obviously dated before the year 62 (or 69) AD, however some scholars believe it could have been written as early as 45 AD. It is addressed to “the twelve tribes in the dispersion…” which is a common way of describing the Jews who were scattered across the various empires and countries of the time. However, it is more likely, seeing as James was a Christian leader that he was writing to Christian Jews who either lived outside of the region of Judea, or who had fled Jerusalem following the death of Stephen (Acts 7-8).

What’s Next?

So now we have a little background on who James is and to whom he was writing. Over the next few weeks we’re going to work our way through this most excellent of books (a letter, really) and examine each passage to understand it’s interpretation as well as to find it’s application for our lives. I hope you will join me on this journey and that God uses it to speak to your heart and mind.

A Challenge – Day 2 Update

Yesterday was day 2 of the prayer challenge my wife and I are undertaking. As I mentioned the other day, it’s seemed to start off really well and I am really excited to see what kind of work God does in not only my own heart, but in our family along the way. Unfortunately, day 2 wasn’t as good as the first. I am sharing this in an effort to be open and transparent with you even though it makes me feel vulnerable. I hope that God will find a way to use it in the life of someone reading it.

I’ve mentioned in the past that I’ve had a history of anger and short-temperedness, though it has improved vastly over the last few years and the last few months have seen very little in terms of frustrated outbursts. However, yesterday was one of those days when it reared it’s ugly head. I found myself upset with something my oldest son did and rather than calmly talk to him about it, I overreacted and yelled at him and made him feel stupid. It’s not something I wanted to do, or even something that I was thinking was a good idea. In the moment, I even thought to myself, Why are you acting like this? You don’t want to speak to him like this. Yet it happened and afterwards I felt absolutely terrible. It wasn’t something I thought about, let alone prayed about ahead of time; it was a knee-jerk reaction in frustration to something trivial that escalated as he reacted exactly the way I would have if I were in his position – with anger spurred on by shame.

It was a day of brokenness and frustration. Brokenness over the pain I caused to someone I love so much, and frustration because I’ve worked hard over the last few years to not let my emotions drive my words or my behaviors. The problem is the fact that I’ve worked at it. On and off over the years I have leaned into God and relied on Him to carry me through my strong emotional responses and to change my heart, but too often I fall back into the trap (usually when things are going well) to take up the burden myself again. I pray that this time it will stick.

In the end, my son and I worked it out. I apologized for my behavior and showing grace and maturity he forgave me. I repented of my sin and in time God helped me to accept His forgiveness which I don’t deserve, however in God’s providence He did have something to teach me through all of this.

I’ve read the Book of James countless times over the years, yet the beauty of Scripture is that it’s timeless and the Holy Spirit is able to bring to life something you’ve read over and over in a new and hard-hitting way. The passages came from James 1 and 3 about the nature of our words.

“If anyone thinks he is religious and does not bridle his tongue but deceives his heart, this person’s religion is worthless.” – James 1:26

“And the tongue is a fire, a world of unrighteousness. The tongue is set among our members, staining the whole body, setting on fire the entire course of life, and set on fire by hell… but no human being can tame the tongue. It is a restless evil, full of deadly poison. With it we bless our Lord and Father, and with it we curse people who are made in the likeness of God. From the same mouth come blessing and cursing. My brothers, these things ought not to be so.” – James 3:6, 8-10

As I continued reading through James today these passages convicted me and reminded me of the importance of tempering my emotional responses to things (something that has definitely been an issue of mine on social media in recent months). These verses have always been there, yet today I think I understand them more fully than I have in prior years.

I’m thankful for God’s grace, and how it extends through my son. One of my greatest fears going back 10+ years has been that I wouldn’t be a good dad, and Lord knows I’m trying my best but my best won’t be good enough without an active reliance on Him each day.

A Challenge

My lovely wife and I have committed to walk through the next month with the challenge to grow deeper in our walk with God by actively seeking him in every choice we make. It may seem extreme to some, but after only one day I feel refreshed by the presence of the Lord and have a renewed focus on what really matters in life. I invite anyone who is feeling led to grow in reliance on God to read my wife’s blog post about this challenge and prayerfully consider taking it yourself!

A New Year and a Fresh Start

With the start of another new year most of us have our goals and resolutions in mind. For me I plan to lose some weight and to continue my professional development, but I also want to get back into writing.  Over the last few months I’ve taken a much needed break from news, politics, and most other responsibilities I placed upon myself and during the break I spent time with my family and rested in God’s grace as I pondered what to do next.

First, I suppose I should apologize for keeping you waiting.  I meant to publish this last week as we rolled in to 2019, but I still wasn’t quite sure where to go with all of this.  Over the last week, however, I’ve thought and prayed about what to do with this blog and I feel like it’s time to start writing again.  With all of that said, here is a quick rundown of what the plans are (for now, in pencil…) for Ancient Abandon in 2019.

Weekly Content

The first goal for 2019 is to publish at least one post each week moving forward.  That may be a Q&A, a word study, a song, a video, a podcast review, etc.

New Voices

As you may know if you’ve been subscribed to and following Ancient Abandon over the last year I have been searching for contributors to share their insights on the blog because I really want to see Ancient Abandon develop beyond being my little blog into a community driven and curated platform of wisdom and ideas. With that said, starting later this month you will begin seeing content from others on the blog, and perhaps elsewhere… (that’s what we call a teaser!)

New Forms of Content

In addition to the standard blog posts I have a number of other projects in the works including ebooks, a variety of studies on things like technology and current events, contests and giveaways!

A New Podcast

After wrapping up the Ancient Abandon Podcast last summer I took some time to think about what worked, what didn’t, and what I would do differently if I had the chance and I am excited to announce that a new podcast will be starting later this year.  I feel like a major flaw the first season had was that I started it very quickly and therefore it lacked direction.  I want to take some time before diving back in to clearly lay out what this new show is about and to get some new equipment to produce a better quality end product.

Social Media Presence

So I’ve never been the best at social media aside from the memes.  I’m not really a fan of platforms like Facebook, Twitter, Instagram, and Snapchat however I recognize their importance for platforms such as Ancient Abandon.  I’m not exactly sure what 2019 will hold as far as working with these platforms as I have a personal resolution to remove my personal accounts from these (and other) platforms this year so if any of you have ideas on how to best handle these changes be sure to reach out!

It is my prayer that 2019 will be a great year and that this site will be used by God to accomplish his plans for you everyone who stumbles upon it.

Lessons Learned – Update for November 2018

Hey there everyone, first of all, I want to say thank you to everyone who has continued to visit the site each day, even with the inconsistency of new content. I’m hoping to get more consistent in the future, but I’ll talk more about that in a minute. First, I wanted to give you a quick update on what’s been going on with my family and I over the last few months.

Adoption Update

As many of you know, my wife and I are pretty deep into the process of adopting a little girl from India. We began this process back around March or April of this year and things started out great! We finished our home study and all of our paperwork in about half the time our agency expected us to, and even though the cost of adopting a child is astronomical, God has been faithful and we have seen a many people come along side us donating over $35,000 in the course of just a few months so that we can bring our daughter home.

Over the summer we cleared our adoption with the US government and are just waiting on approval from Indian government, which is where we are today. The adoption division of the Indian government, the Central Adoption Resource Authority (CARA), went through some restructuring recently and as a result our case has been waiting for approval for 16 weeks instead of the typical 2 – 4 weeks. However, this was not the only concern we’ve been dealing with.

Last month we received word that another family had pulled the file of the child we are pursuing. What this means is that when someone pulls a child’s file they are given 30 days to look over it, see doctors, and consider whether they want to adopt that child. These were 30 of the longest days we’ve had to go through as a family. Each day seemed longer than the last as we waited to see if this child who we’ve invested in making our daughter was going to end up going home with another family, however the 30 days came and went and her file was returned to the waiting child list. We know that there’s no guarantee this family, or some other family won’t come along and choose her, but until then we are doing everything we can to bring her home. Over this last month we have had to lean into God, but also be brutally honest with him about how we were feeling. I was sad, but also angry even though there wasn’t really anyone I could be justly mad at.

I, like most men, struggle with being open and vulnerable about my emotions and tend toward apathy as a defense mechanism; however the last month or so has been an opportunity to share those emotions with God and with my wife and to process them in a healthy way. As a result, my wife and I drew closer together as we shared each other’s burdens and prayed for one another and for our boys who were hurting and afraid that their sister whom they love already might not get to come home. While I’m sharing the benefits of having gone through this time, I am not saying it was easy because it was anything but. I am, however, thankful that God doesn’t let us go, and that he’s big enough to deal with our anger and frustrations even when they’re misdirected toward him or other people.

I share all of this with you not for your sympathy, but to let you into my heart and to remind anyone who may be struggling with hard situations in their own life that you are not alone in the hurt, the anger, and the sorrow that you feel.  I don’t ever want Ancient Abandon to focus so much on having all the right answers to theological and moral questions that it misses the gritty reality of what it means to be human and the real life issues people face.

As far as the adoption stands today, we are still waiting for CARA approval, then approval from the No Objection Committee, and finally approval from the the courts in India. We are also a few thousand dollars short of being fully funded.  Please pray for my family as we continue to navigate this process. Pray that we would get approval sooner rather than later and that we wouldn’t have anymore problems along the way. Also, if you want to help out financially by donating to the adoption fund, reach out to me by email (ancientabandon@gmail.com) or you can contact me on Telegram @RebornJumpman.  Finally, I ask that you join us in praying that we would be approved and legally matched with our daughter before Christmas. She has been waiting for a family for 10 years and we would love it if one of her gifts this year could be finding out that her family is coming for her.

Blog Update

I know it’s been a long time since I’ve posted any new content on this blog, and I’m sorry to those of you who follow or subscribe. You expect better and I’ve been wanting to do a lot with it. Part of the reason I haven’t been better about posting is that I’ve just not wanted to write lately – even the last few updates, song posts, and study posts were a chore to put out and that’s not normal for me. With the stress of the adoption as well as dealing with burn out from being too politically active and constantly aware of current events I found myself not wanting to read, or write, or do much of anything. As a result, I listened to the leading of the Holy Spirit an I took some time away from blogging. I’ve intentionally avoided most news outlets for the better part of a month now, and I’ve removed all the social media apps from my phone. Not surprising, it has been a wonderful time of getting back to what really matters.

I plan to come back to blogging. While I’m not exactly sure of the timeline, I will probably start publishing more regularly after the New Year, but I’m not going to rush it. Please pray for guidance, wisdom, and discernment as I try to balance family life, a career, and blogging along with my other hobbies. Until next time, I love you guys.

Update for September 2018

Adoption Update

Another month has gone by and what a month it’s been for my family and I.  As I previously mentioned, we are in the process of adopting our daughter from India, and while there has been a major hold up with the Indian government we have been officially approved with the US Customs and Immigration Service.  Basically, it means that we have been officially cleared on the American side to adopt, and now we are just waiting on India to catch up.  There are a few more steps in the process once we’ve been approved by India and formally matched with our child, but for now, please pray that the hold up in the process would pass and that we would be matched in the next week or two.

If anyone would like to donate toward the financial cost of bringing our daughter home you can do so on our Continue to Give campaign.  Funds raised will go toward adoption expenses such as, government fees, attorney fees, travel to India, etc.

Likewise, if you or anyone you know would like to help with the cost of preparing to meet her special needs, we are running a fundraiser for that as well at on Bonfire where you can get a shirt, tank, or hoodie that reads “Love. Advocate. Inspire” and “#StrongParentsStrongKids”.  Funds raised through the Bonfire campaign will go toward things like a wheel chair, accessibility renovations, and other tools to meet her needs.

As always, God’s hand is at work in this entire process and we ask for your prayers above all else.  However, if you desire to help, or feel the Lord leading you to do so, please leave a note when you make the donation that you came to it from Ancient Abandon so I can thank you personally!

Book Update

The goal was to have Lessons from Jesus written, published, and ready for distribution by the end of this week, however with the adoption stuff and some other personal matters that came up over the last month, I haven’t had much time to really work on it for the last few weeks.  I would like to say that I can wrap it up in the next couple of weeks, but truth be told, I have a lot going on and if we are cleared and matched by India, the adoption process is going to really start picking up.  I am going to shoot to have it finished and released by early November, but depending on how quickly we have to proceed and how much time I will need to dedicate to work, family, and further studies, I may not get it out until closer to Christmas.  If anyone is actually really looking forward to it, I apologize for the delay; however this is a hobby of mine, and I have to prioritize it as such.

Blog Update

As life picks up my goal is to publish more short-form content.  This may be more in the form of blogging through song posts, or even just quick thoughts on bible passages and news clips.  Please pray that I could find a new job with a more regular schedule and that after we bring our daughter home that we can once again find a more level pace of life.

Podcast Update

Now, in light of all I’ve mentioned so far, I wanted to make an announcement regarding the podcast.

When I started the show last year, I thought it would be fairly simple to produce, yet after 16 episodes, I have a new appreciation for the process of content creation.  But as I mentioned in the book update, while this is a ministry, it is all a hobby and podcasting is an additional expense that I cannot afford right now in addition to the thousands of dollars that go toward the adoption.

With that in mind, I had to make a decision regarding the future of the show; and so I am sad to announce that episode 17 which will be released next Saturday will be the final episode for the time being.  I really enjoy podcasting, and I do not think this will be the end for good.  My hope is that once life settles a bit more, I can relaunch the show, and possibly even be able to afford some better equipment to produce it with the quality that I wanted from the beginning.

If you are subscribed via a podcast player or directory, the feed will remain live until 9/13 at which point the hosting service ends.  I will do my best to get all of the episodes up on YouTube and to move the audio over to the Internet Archive.

Study: Psalms 2:1-4

Psalms 2:1-4 (ESV)
“Why do the nations rage and the peoples plot in vain? The kings of the earth set themselves, and the rulers take counsel together, against the LORD and against His Anointed, saying, ‘Let us burst their bonds apart and cast away their cords from us.’ He who sits in the heavens laughs; the LORD holds them in derision.”

Context – How Does This Fit In With Scripture as a Whole?

A psalm of David.

Interpretation – What Does This Mean in Context?

Many commentators agree that while this psalm was written by David and reflects the conflicts he faced throughout his reign as King of Israel, these verses portray the hatred and conflict between God and his enemies.

The Hebrew words used for “nations” and “peoples” are goyim and le’umiym.  They express the idea of a people without respect and engaged in agitation against God as seen in the word ragash, translated “rage” meaning tumult, noise, violent commotion, or agitation.

The phrase, “…against the LORD and against his Anointed” in verse two comes from the Hebrew al-Adonai v’al-meshicho which literally comes from the root meshiach or messiah. Meshicho is commonly understood to refer to the Greater Son of David or Mashiach ben David whom we know to be Yeshua, or Jesus.

Application – What Can We Take From This?

There are people reading the blog and listening to the podcasts all over the world. Some of us are believers in Jesus and others aren’t. There is a perception by many non-believers, and particularly from folks far on the political left that because Christianity has had a highly influential role in the global power-structures for hundreds of years that the world inherently favors the Christian faith.

This view, itself, is flawed and based on false thinking for a number of reasons. While Christianity prevailed in the latter years of the Roman and Byzantine Empires, throughout the Medieval period, and into the modern/colonial era it wasn’t the prevailing worldview globally; that notion is based on a Euro-Centric understanding of history and it overlooks the social and anthropological history of most places – especially in the far east and the global south.

For instance, Buddhism and Hindusim were, and still are heavily influential in India and much of Asia. The Japanese traditions of Shinto and Bushido had a strong hold well into the mid-20th century. Islam has had the ancient Near East (aka the Middle East), North Africa, and much of Asia, as well as many regions of Southeast Asia for the better part of 1,500 years.

And while Christianity spread into much of Africa, many Africans (including some Christians and Muslims) continued to observe their animistic and matriarchal traditions to this day. One such case of this can be found in the islands of Comoros near Madagascar.  And, of course, how could we forget the rejection of God by the multitude of atheists and agnostics since the Enlightenment?

The truth is that the Western embrace of Judeo-Christian culture and values was just another cultural system that fell under the umbrella of human civilization.  It has definitely had an effect on the global community, to be sure, but it is foolish to assume that Western culture has completely dominated all others.

Yet with all of that said, this understanding fails to account for reality that we are spiritual beings temporarily living in a temporal world.  There is a bigger picture that this psalm is addressing, which is that we are a part of the spiritual conflict between the Godly and the demonic.

That conflict manifests through the global superstructure, referred to by many Christian’s as the World System.

“Why do the nations rage and the peoples plot in vain? The kings of the earth set themselves, and the rulers take counsel together, against the LORD and against his Anointed…”

The nations rage and the people plot against God’s plan and commands because they are antithetical to the carnal nature of the World’s System. As natural humans we have bought into the satanic lie that we can be our own God or that we can in someway outshine God’s brilliance and we get frustrated when we inevitably fail in those endeavors – so we push back harder. But,

“He who sits in the heavens laughs; the LORD holds them in derision.”

Despite how hard we fight against God and against His Will, we will fail. Our greatest resistance is laughable to Him, and it makes us his enemy.

This passage from David’s psalm speaks not only to what happened, but to what always happens. Humans plot and rebel and then we fail. The message of these verses is to repent of our own folly and to walk humbly with Jesus, in His grace, forever.

Update for August 2018

Hello everyone! It’s the end of the month which means it’s time for another update.

Adoption Update

If you’ve listened to the last episode of the podcast you’ll likely remember that I finally revealed that my wife and I are adopting a little girl from India! There aren’t many details I can really share at the moment, but we are hoping to have her home by the Spring. So far we have completed our home study and have applied for several grants. We are currently awaiting approval from USCIS (US Customs & Immigration) and from an organization known as CARA which represents the Indian government. In addition, God really worked out a difficult situation that we found ourselves in with a person who presented themselves as someone they weren’t. As a result, we paid $800 for a required service that was never completed but after weeks of stressing and feeling overwhelmed/angry about it, I was finally able to get in touch with them. Within an hour of that conversation and as a result of a lot of prayer, we had a full refund.

Please pray for:

  • Peace and patience as we work through this long and taxing process.
  • Funding for the process (it costs between $30,000 and $40,000 to adopt from India)
  • A better paying job in the near future
  • God’s provision through everything that is required of us right now

eBook Progress

I am still working on my first ebook, a month-long devotion (now) titled Lessons from Jesus. While progress has slowed as I’ve been busy with adoption stuff and just being really tired, I am still hoping to have an early September 2018 release date.

Social Media

As I mentioned in the last episode of the podcast, I have launched an Ancient Abandon Twitter account, and I’ve revamped the Facebook page. I’ve mostly used them for announcing upcoming posts or podcast episodes, however I also share news articles and discussion starters.

I also wanted to thank everyone who participated on last week’s social media poll. I asked people to vote on their preferred Ancient Abandon content and 69% said they favored theological commentary, while 31% said they prefer current events commentary though it’s worth mentioning that many people commented that they would have chosen “Both” if that option had been available.

To keep up with Ancient Abandon on social media and to be a part of future polls and discussions, Like and Follow on Facebook at facebook.com/ancientabandon and on Twitter @AncientAbandon.

Blog Updates

The last half of July was a good month for the blog. In addition to episode 15 of the podcast coming out, three new blogging through song posts were published. While I haven’t done these music inspired posts in a long time, it has been a refreshing break from the news and politics of everyday life. Be sure to check out the posts covering “Heathens” by Twenty One Pilots, “I Won’t Let Go” by Jason Mraz, and “Halo” by Starset.

Next month I plan to publish an article on the physical, emotional, and financial cost of adoption and the Christian mandate to care for the orphan so be sure to check in, or click the “Follow” button in the side bar to get updates via email.

Podcast Updates

Finally, episode 16 of the podcast will be released this Saturday, August 4, 2018. Be sure to subscribe to the Ancient Abandon Podcast in your preferred podcast player to get the latest episodes as soon as they come out; and if you want to help me out you can take a minute of your time to leave a five-star rating and review which will help it become more discoverable to new listeners.

One last bit of news regarding the podcast: at some point following the release of episode 16 I will be changing hosting services. This shouldn’t cause any issues with you getting new episodes, but in the event that you see a new one posted on the website but haven’t gotten it in your podcast feed, you may need to unsubscribe and re-subscribe again.
With all of that said, thank you all for being here, for your prayers, and for your continued support.

Blessings to you all,

Starset – “Halo”


I can see you running, running
Every night from the same darkness
It’s coming, coming
But you are not along
If you just say the word I’ll be there by your side
You make me more, you make me superhuman
And if you need me to
I will save you

Send out the signal and I’ll fly low
If it means the death of me
I won’t let go
And if I’m lost in the world’s shadows
I’ll use the light that comes to me
From your halo (You’re halo)

When you’re backed against the wall
I could be the one who’s always there to break your fall
You are not alone
You’re the sun
You’re the day
The light that guides me through
Never run
Run away
I will save you

Send out the signal and I’ll fly low
If it means the death of me
I won’t let go
And if I’m lost in the world’s shadows
I’ll use the light that comes to me
From your halo

Send out the signal and I’ll fly low
If it means the death of me
I won’t let go
And if I’m lost in the world’s shadows
I’ll use the light that comes to me
From your halo

And if I’m lost in the world’s shadows
I’ll use the light that comes to me
From your halo
Your halo
I won’t let go (Your halo)
I won’t let go (Your halo)
I won’t let go (Won’t let go)
And if I’m lost in the world’s shadows
I’ll use the light that comes to me
From your halo
You’re halo
You’re halo


Halo is one of my favorite songs. Like many albums that have a place in my heart, Starset’s debut album Transmissions dropped into my lap at just the right time in my life. I was in my last year and a half of college and plugging away at school and work while trying to keep my head above water to be a decent husband, father, and friend. The album itself was unique from most other albums that I’ve listened to. It was thematic, almost like a space odyssey rock opera with it’s combination of rock guitar and symphonic strings added to a healthy dose of synth and old fashioned broadcasting voice overs. Each song lead into the next instilling a feeling of early scientific discovery and an epic voyage into the unknown.

While different songs from the album have different meanings to me, Halo has been my favorite since I discovered the album. The music video is well suited to the lyrics. It visualizes a search and rescue on a distant and harsh world. The captive, a young female researcher who appears to have been abducted by someone or something is trying to escape from a mysterious facility while her lover is trying to find her. As the young man traverses the planet he finds the facility and the two finally reconnect and embrace as the bridge reaches it’s pinnacle.

I suppose you could say that the appeal of Halo, in my eyes is not just one single aspect. I love the music. I love the lyrics. I love the story being told by the music video, and it appeals to the natural desire within every man’s heart (especially the Christian man) to be a hero and to rescue the the one we love from some form of evil or injustice. It’s the reason we have countless books, fairy tales, movies, and video games with that exact plot line. It’s the reason we feel a sense outrage and anger at injustice and someone mistreats the people we care about. We have that desire because we are made in God’s image. He loved us enough to come to a hostile world, to search us out and to rescue us from the one holding us hostage. He instructed us to care for the orphan and the widow and led by example. He cleansed the temple of the merchants and money changers that were ripping people off who were trying to worship the God of Israel. He brought (and still brings) hope to generations of people of every tribe, every tongue, and every nation. And because we are made to be like Him, we have the same desires.